Well, now what?

I think I can live with the WordPress theme I found.  I don’t understand 95% of what it is or what it does or how it works (something to do with magic, or elven folklore, i assume).  But, it works.  It looks simple, and I’m good with that, cuz I’m just a simple man trying to make my way in the universe.

I’ve been through some shit these past few years.  I’ve seen amazing things.  I’ve done amazing things.  My career path changed.  I found a new hobby.  I met a girl.  I’ve had a LOT of really good sex.  I mean, seriously, like a lot.  Like, you woudln’t even believe how great this sex was (channeling my inner Trump to see if I can trigger anyone).

But, despite all that, despite all the good, something is wrong with me.  I don’t know exactly what.  It’s been 8 years since the divorce, and sometimes it feels like I’m still fighting with the same demons I did all those years ago.  And, to be honest, it feels like they’ve been winning.

I started seeing a therapist.  As we talked, and I reminisced about how fulfilling it was when I was writing more frequently and being creative and doing dumb things, she suggested maybe it was time to go back to it.  Chimptopia was always a kind of dysfunctional public therapy for me, so maybe it’s time to lay down on my imaginary couch and tell all the world my problems.  But, you know, in a funny way.  No matter what happens, I have to laugh at myself, and the world, and all the dumb people and things I see.

So, I’m starting here.  I’m going to TRY to write somewhat consistently, at least a couple of times a week.  Ideally, more, but who knows?  It may be weeks or months (or never) before anyone sees this site, but that’s ok.  I’m doing it for me, which is the best reason to do anything creative.  Unless you’re Rian Johnson, in which case you’re SUPPOSED TO DO IT FOR THE FANS, YOU ARROGANT DICKHOLE.

But…I digress.

My posts will be random crap like this, or flashbacks to what has happened to me in the past, or reports of places I go and things I see.  Yes, I occasionally leave the house now.  I’m not a fan of the outside world, but I acknowledge it has SOME value.

In conjunction with this, I’m planning to clean up my YouTube channel and MAYBE start producing new content for that.  I have an idea for a relatively serious video about Star Wars toys, because even though i’m creeping ever closer toward the grave, I’m still a stupid kid at heart (who loves boobs and Star Wars, in that order).

Hopefully everything on the site is working (except for the fucking slider thing I can’t figure out).  Should be fun.  Or, it could be a train wreck.  Which is also fun, just not for me.  For you.  Cuz I’m all about your fun.  Really.  Honest.

Until next time, be sure to smack her on the ass and say “this one’s for Chimpuat”, cuz that’s what makes Harambe smile in heaven.

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